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IDIS 102 is hated and despised by most undergraduate students. I love it (aside from a few technical problems). Worth one semester hour and knowledge I will use the rest of my life. The class challenges us to consider our worldview and the worldviews of the...world. How do we see and interpret life, culture, religion? Developing a Christian worldview. Seeing everything in light of Christ.

I watched Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon for the first time last night. After the paralysis subsided I considered how appropriate this movie was to view on Good Friday. The love and commitment shown by the protagonists is a beautiful picture of God's love for each of us. The willingness to die, giving up everything He ever loved, for his one ultimate love. I don't have time to sit here and type out all my thoughts concerning this... I want to think about it more.

How beautiful everything becomes when you look at it incarnationally, through the eyes of Christ.

Before the movie I reviewed a few of Screwtape's letters for my IDIS final on Monday. This quote had caught before and snagged me again: “He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His hand; and if only the will to walk is really there He is pleased even with their stumbles.” (Lewis). A picture started to play in my mind of a baby girl learning to walk. I wrote it down because I think this struggle is a beautiful one. After my run I sat by the pond to talk with God. I was feeling quite emotionally numb. I watched the blue heron fly away into the dark then asked God, "Why am I not moving anymore? Get me out of the shallows." The picture of the baby girl on her fifth step played in my mind. Somewhere I had fallen to the ground. Lost in my own tears, I had just been sitting there staring at my rug burns and wondering why God wasn't running to me to help me up. Get up, look deep in My eyes, and walk. I finally heard his gentle pleas. I stood up and walked away from there.

We are all so blessed. Stop and consider that today in light of the Easter holiday. Happy Easter!

I packed one box today with the contents of one shelf.

Leaving Canada and returning to Woodinville, WA is a bit of a dream for me. Not dream in the sense that I want it, but not in the sense that I don't want it. Dream in the sense that it's unreal to me. Next week I will no longer type from this perch: looking out over a concrete sea with the rugby field in the distance.

It will be a good summer. There are four things I want to do: read, bike, work, love.

In other news: The other day my hair looked like crap and I honestly didn't care. Yesterday I sat on an island in the middle of an intersection and watched cars drive by on Glover. I believe God is leading me to a point where I am completely comfortable with who he has made me to be.

The end. (actually, The Beginning.)

Hi. I don't want to write... here. Bye.

We are told that God (not fate, mankind or chance) ultimately controls
all of human history (though people do make choices, such as choosing
to sin) and makes everything beautiful when He sees fit, and not a day
earlier. Amazingly, every detail of human history from words spoken to
food eaten and bullets fired will be ultimately woven into a beautiful
tapestry by Him. Meanwhile, for those of us under the tapestry (what
Solomon calls under the sun) who do not understand what God is doing
from beginning to end, our lives and human history seem a chaotic
anarchy of ugly sin and death.

As with every tapestry, from underneath the loom, what seems to be
mere snarls and knots appears from above asa gloriously hand-crafted
object of beauty and symmetry.

- Pastor Mark Driscoll from Mars' Hill

I finally added my own comments to the discussion on authority and Romans 13 I started back in March. If you are so inclined you can read my 130 am musings. I added them to the [3/27/2003 11:52:33 AM] post. Enjoy.

In other news: I get the extreme joy of taking two finals back-to-back on Wednesday. Prayer would be appreciated. They will be my COMM 200: Research in the Information Age final and my LAST French test ever! Thanks.

back to studying... yes!

(I know: the fact that I actually enjoy studying should be a signal that I have some mental complication, though this was established the other day)